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[Mar. 16th, 2007|07:29 pm] |
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I havent updated in so long, so I figured why not, I need somewhere to vent and get all these frustrations out, I cant stand people anymore, I really think im turning into an misanthrope. I find something wrong with everyone I meet, well except for one person that is. i've never seen so much good in a person, didnt think people like that were out there anymore. just seems like theres more important things in life now, and people dont appreciate the simple things in life anymore, I just wish I could go away sometimes, and meet a whole new group of people, but ont he other hand, they'd probably turn out to be exactly like the terrible people I already know. I want to meet genuine people, who dont take things for granted, and appreciate life, and all the wonderful things it has to offer! i'm almost 18 and I havent really met anyone I can relate to (except one person). it's kind of sad, why dont people have values anymore? whats happening to society today, is the whole world focused on materialistic possessions? egotistical dousche bags. On a lighter note, everythings been good besides that, fianlly broke things off with Anthony months ago. dont really know where that was going, or what I was thinking, biggest mistake possible. I'm with someone a whole lot better now. and I dont think I could possibly be any happier, he's great. Proms soon, and I already got my dress, it's gorgeous.AND Chris got me tickets to see Ben Ginnard :) the anticipation is killing me. alright enough rambling! goodnight |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2006|01:39 pm] |
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everything seems like its all falling apart, and I really dont know what to do anymore, there's only so much I can do by myself. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|11:03 pm] |
so at fucking 1102 me and melissa got into a car accident well me and melissa were dropping anthony off, so we drop him off, and were driving down this road, and we stop to make this turn, and were completely stopped, and this guy comes speeding down the road and hits us head on, and I was so close to the dashboard, so the air bag went off right in my face. and my teeth went into both my lips, so my lips have all cuts in them and they said it would be best for stitches but they werent gonna do it because the lady didnt do mouth stitches, so my lips are blown up like balloons, like worse then angelina jolies lips, and I have chemical burns all over my face and neck and chest, all I remember was seeing the car coming, and then I like blacked out, and all I remember was the air bags going off and smelling the stuff coming out of them, and looking at melissa and us screaming at the top of our lungs. so we rush out of the car and were both screaming and histerically crying, so the kids who hit us come up to us and are like trying to hug us and are like oh are you okay ? there car had barely any damage, and they were fine, there faces were fine, so they didnt even call the cops, the neighbors ahd to call the cops, so the cops and ambulances come, and I call my mom and she was sleeping so I was bugging out, so I called anthony, and he was there in 2 seonds, and they were trying to calm me down because they thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown, so they put me in a neck brace. and wouldnt let me fucking stand up, I was getting so aggravated, and then they put me in a stretcher, and anthonys mom is calming me down, so then my moms calling me and the cop wouldnt let me pick up my phone, so anthony rode in the ambulance with me, and stayed at the hospital with me the whole time, and i was there from 11-4, and later that night I found out that the kids had come from a party, but noone botherted to check if they were drinking, and the doctor told me if my seatbelt wasnt on then i wouldnt have made it. and also the jeep rode onto of our car, and was 2 inches away form the window, if it wouldve hit the window, we wouldve died instantly. there was fucking glass all over my seat,because my airbag pushed the dashboard up that and the impact cracked the front window.
and those fucking assholes are trying to say its our fault? we were almost at a complete stop, and they fucking try and say we were turning too early, THE LEFT SIDE OF THE FUCKING CAR WAS SMASHED TOO, SO HOW THE FUCK WOULD WE BE "TURNING TOO EARLY" THEY WOULDVE HIT THE RIGHT SIDE IF IT WAS THAT CASE,im so heatd, fuck the postal service too, because we were listening to that as we fucking hot hit, im so upset.
but today was a better day, it started off terrible, I was in so much pain all day, until I get a knock on my door, and its anthony with a white rose :) |
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[Nov. 5th, 2006|08:44 pm] |
wowwww i'm the worst at updating, lets see.
uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm nothing really new except, I have a boyfriend, and he's great. uhm me and mary are really close now, and I love her to death, me and Vickee are becoming pretty close, and she's so fun to be around. that's basically all that's been going on, but yeah anthony's amazing and he makes me soo happy. everythings been awesome,. idk goodbye |
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[Sep. 12th, 2006|11:49 am] |
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| | Jack's Mannequin - Made for eachother. | ] |
School started last Thursday, and I actually enjoy it. Ive decided that by the time I go to College I'm going to be sophisticated, and my goal for this school year is to improve my vocabulary. Well Mikes on his way to get me. I kinda had an awful weekend, so much shit happened. I lost my best friend. Mike made me feel pretty bad as well. but whatever I'll get over that. Hes a guy, I shouldve expected that from him. Hopefully things will be good today, I hope i'll have fun today, I'm sure I will because Mike is a very fun person to be around, he makes me laugh. Well I need to finish getting ready. I'll update later. |
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[Sep. 4th, 2006|06:50 pm] |
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lets see. notm uch has been new except me and trish have become really close, i love that girl to death, me and evan are through, that didnt work our, i have a date tonight, should be fun. uhmmmm yeah thats about it i guess oh yeah and im going to florida soon to visit alex :). |
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[Aug. 13th, 2006|01:41 pm] |
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work was good, a little scary, but i did pretty good, i learned it pretty fast . but yeah so alex is leaving me soon :(, kinda upsetting but yeah, i hope i get to see him before he leaves, or ill be so upset. well its my moms birthday and im going to my uncles not to celebrate, goodbyee. |
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[Aug. 12th, 2006|01:47 pm] |
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so yeah, first day of work today, im so nervous, but hopefully i will be alright. okay so evans flight is friday, so now hopefully he will actually come home this time, im not keeping my hopes up though, im just gonna pretend hes not coming home just in case rofl. misshhh you boo! ;) |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|01:11 pm] |
well yesterday anthony came over, and then jesse came, we went to the bay and then went back to jesses house, i got to talk with jesses mom again, shes the sweetest lady, i love his whole family, there so nice. so anyways, we went to his friend mikes house and chilled for a little, then anthony got picked up, and me and jesse went back to his house. well yeah his dog is a wack job, its so vicious and tryed to eat me, real cool. lol
anyways, so yeah i slept there and we talked and hung out all night and didnt go to bed till 430, it was good bonding time. i fucking missed him, i was happy he could hang out. so yeah we just talked about old times and had alot of fun. and then i woke up at 700 and went home that early to wait for evan to come get me, WELL HEY GUESS WHAT, FUCKING TERRORISTS RUINED MY FUCKING WEEKEND, COOL ALL FLIGHTS DELAYED AND CANCELLED, THATS JUST GREAT, so hes still in california. i hate my life, but anyways on the bright side of things i went in today for a job, and i got it! i start tomorrow, should be good :). |
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[Aug. 8th, 2006|06:16 pm] |
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ive been really happy lately. evans coming back in 2 days. so that should be really fun. his birthdays this weekend, along with james and my moms. jeeeze. but whatevs, ive been hanging out with good people. i saw lisa the other day :)we went to summerfest, and i got so wasted, it really was terrible ahaaaaa, anyways i missed her alot. and i hung out with someone else, we went to the beach together, and went mini golfing and went out to eat and everything, it was so much fun., and go carts was the best, i love her to death. ive been doing such fun stuff lately. i went to see brand new last weekend with kristin, so fucking amazing, except i sliced my toe open, and my nails falling off, real cool!@ hg gh but oh well, it was totally worth it, then also that weekend me and kristin went to seaport with her family, and went to the bodies museum, i saw a contortionist, it was fucking awesomee, ahaa and also met really cool street performers. then we went out to a restaurant and ate dinner. ive been on a diet for the past 2 weeks, and im actually sticking with it. i feel so good about it too, no more junk food. i can feel it too, on my waist, its so good. i notice a difference when i put on my jeans. life has been so good, i really couldnt ask for anything more in it right now. i really cant wait till evan comes back. were gonna have such a good time. its gonna be crazyyyyy. i started driving btw, like ive always driven on the back roads and stuff with my mom. but i drove alot today, we went everywhere, i drove on 112 and major road. it was so awesome. i did so good. im so happy me and my mom are getting along now. i love it, i hate when we fight, it really is the worst. im doing so good in summer school, all A's :). thats how its going to be when i go back to school. no more fucking up, i figured out i want to be a kindergarten teacher, and im gonna do everything i can to pursue that. i also want to open a bakery.but idk if that will happen. but yeah , moving to cali in almost a year. im so happy, im gonna be getting the fuck out of new york. and im goiing with the people who mean the most to me :). and thats where im going to college, pretty coool. alright im gonna stop blabbing now. |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2006|05:51 pm] |
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im so content with the way everything is right now. i really couldnt be any happier. oh yeah and i had a great time at brand new, except for cutting open my fucking toe, and having my nail fall off, ahaa, oh eyah and i went to seaport and went to the bodies museum, i had such a good weekend, and last night was fun too, anthony had his friend come get me, we hung out all night, and smoked and shit, and then i went to school aha. im so fucking tired.
okay byeeeee! |
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[Jul. 10th, 2006|05:43 am] |
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aw megs party was fun, i love lisa and meg so much haahaa, YOU GIRLS ARE THE BEST EVERRRR! but anyways yeh i had a good time, by the end of the night me and emily were dancing with an inflatable monkey, good timessss. evan might not come home this wednsday now, ahaa something always has to come in my way. fucking gay. |
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[Jul. 5th, 2006|07:10 pm] |
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| | Maria Mena-Monday Morning | ] |
ughh so yeah NOTHING has been going on, my 4th of july sucked balls, all i did was go to applebees with ym family. and i saw the sweetest mini cooper today, it was an old one, so yeah i have a job now, and my goal is to save up and get one. i had my first day of summer school todday, it wasnt that bad i guess, it went by really slow though. oh well moneys good so the job should be worth it, im gonna be waitressing, im SOOOOO NERVOUS! but whatevss im sure everything will be fine. im going to brooklyn tomorrow for a show, i havent been to a show in who knows how long, its going to be so weird, i hope i see some of my old friends though. well yeah bye. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|06:47 pm] |
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| | Aloha-You've escaped. | ] |
yesterday was alot of fun, i woke up at like 8ish, and went ot the ferry with rkistin and her mom and step dad. we took the ferry to ocean beach. it was beautiful, it was so much better than davis park, i got burned to shit though, its so bad i cant even like lay on my back, all i wanna do now is just be lazy and sleep. summer school starts in a few days, thats pretty shitty, im so upset about that. whateverrrrr. fireworks tomorrow. and evans coming back in 8 days! :) sweet deal! |
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[Jul. 1st, 2006|09:14 pm] |
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most rediculous day ever yesterday, well first kristin got me and then we went to her house, and then went downport and got ice cream for a little, met up with michelle, met some crazy kid will who told me kristin and michelle he wanted to hook up with all 3 of us, what a weird kid that was, then we met up with jake and then emily came over, we went downport again, met some funny kids, went to the diner, got ice cream from pathmark. then in the parking lot emily was driving around, she hit a shopping cart, and drove into some shed, the door shattered ROFL,it was the funniest thing ever, oh god we could not stop laughing, and as we get out of the parking lot i called kristin a bitch, and the guy next to us was like wow im scared, and i was like "your scared of me?" and he goes no, thnen u gave him a flower, and he talked about corn bread. it was the funniest day. ANDD OH YEAH, WE RAN INTO MY FRIEND TOM, WHICH I HADNT SEEN IN LIKE 2 YEARS, lol it was nice seeing him, i missed him. and yeah then they all slept over kristins with me, and then yeah most rediculous night ever. bye. oh yeah! i got a new yorkie! and went strawberry picking with my mom the other day, it was alot of fun! |
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[Jun. 29th, 2006|09:11 pm] |
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ive never been so sure of anything in my life, i know for a fact i want to be with him. |
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[Jun. 27th, 2006|04:55 pm] |
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| | The Honorary Title-Petals | ] |
alright so i made a new journal,
the other one was terrible anyways,
too many memories that i dont even want to remember.
but anyways,
lets see, not much has been going on lately,
joey left for london a week ago and i havent talked to him since then,
i dont really know whats going on anymore,
i just got home for the first time in three days,
im never home anymore,
and it kinda bothers me now,
i never sleep at home, i miss my own bed.
summer school is starting in about 2 weeks,
im not looking forward to that, it sucks so bad. im so pissed at myself for fucking up so bad,
im a jackass.
my summers been pretty decent though,
alot of parties, and meeting new people.
i like that.
last night was decent i guess, me and kristin went to nassau to hang out with alex,
and it turned into this whole big group of people,
it was fun.
idk everythings so confusing right now,
but anyways i think im done for writing for now,
ill update later.
byeee!~ |
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